i have ever

I have ever given my all, full heartedly liked someone. It was probably one-sided, who knows. It was a few years back, we were from the same school and for some reason, he texted me out of the blue. We were maybe acquaintances(?) i'd see him around in school but that's kind of it. Never would i have expected him to text me though, if you get what i mean. I actually still remember how we started talking, but that's not the point. The point was, he would text me every single day since then and he was a really nice guy, not to mention funny too. He was a wonderful friend and i would confide in him and he would give me advice accordingly and i guess as time passed, i started to depend on him. I started to like him.

Whenever his name appears on my phone, it'll just automatically put a smile to my face. It was a nice feeling -crushing on someone. We'd text everyday, him telling me about his day and vice versa. Months passed and i was actually really crushing on him real badly. It was nice to have someone to depend on, someone you'd want to share your happiness with, someone you'd want to share your sadness with. 

However, then came the late replies, the no replies. It was kind of hurtful to think that the person you've become so close to is starting to drift away, is not enjoying your company anymore. Soon after, we became strangers again. It was as if we'd never spoken. Those months of texting became nothing. I started to ask myself, what happened? What went wrong? I mulled over this whole saga for a really long time actually. Never would i have thought i'd like him so much as to depend on him so much. In time, i've learnt to let go, to move on. If he truly cared, he's bound to start the ball rolling again. He never did. I guess that's when you know how much you meant to the other person, and that maybe they aren't worth your time anymore. 

My close friends would know who i'm referring to. Some would call him the dick idiot haha but i wouldn't disagree(-;

Ever felt that way? No worries, one day, you'll find someone who wouldn't take you for granted, someone who would appreciate everything you do and acknowledge your worth. 

Much love,

Rach xoxo

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