I am that girl

I am that girl who sits uncomfortably on the bench with my earphones plugged in, pretending to be busy whenever i wait for my friends to arrive. I would probably be going through my social media platforms, reading a book or scrolling through my music library, my subconscious aware of the surroundings, averting my eyes up to the  judgemental stares that i think are staring at me and i look back down, at my phone. Are the people out there really judging me? No. Probably not. I doubt anyone would notice the girl sitting on the bench, waiting for her friends for approximately ten minutes and twenty-two seconds at all. Ten minutes and twenty-two seconds. Ten meaningless minutes and twenty-two insignificant seconds. I don't know why that inconsequential amount of time seemed so important to me, it wasn't as though my friends aren't going to show up. They are better than that. I guess i just fear the rejection that would never come. I am a seventeen year old girl, happy, blessed and have no actual reasons to be upset about life, yet somehow i find one. I guess that's why i prefer being late compared to turning up early.

Much love,

Rach xoxo

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