That's okay

Hey there bunnies! I know my previous post was kinda just asking you guys to help with my project and all. But really thank you guys so much!! Those that have followed and liked *hugs*. Sometimes i wonder if there are really people reading my blog or just me kind of talking to myself. But at the same time it's nice to have a platform to just express my feelings, emotions and just to remember these moments in my life.

I don't think i should actually be writing a blog post now because i have an accounting test tomorrow and am supposed to be studying... Math has NEVER been my forte. Its like when i was born, the ability to comprehend mathematics was stripped from me in whatever way possible. Don't get me wrong, i can do basic math and all but when it comes to all that confusing stuff, my brain just says "nope! Ain't gonna understand it, ain't gonna do it." From what i can remember, in primary school i was still doing fairly well, like i wasn't flunking my math really badly or anything. Until i was primary 4. I remember this really distinctively. CA1, for the first time in my math life, i actually got 90/100. Like wow. Even my mum said "Are you sure that's your paper?" HAHA. Yes, my math was really that bad. In CA2, for some reason, my math dropped like crazy. From getting 90/100 for CA1 to 51/100 for CA2. It was from that moment onwards, math was my worst nightmare. Since that exam, i've always gotten borderline pass or fail for my math.

So, tuition was then introduced. Cause y'know PSLE was somewhat around the corner and maybe failing mathematics wasn't the best thing to do back then. Well, i survived PSLE with a C hahaha. Then we went on to secondary school. It was all fine in secondary 1&2 like suddenly i could do math for once. I was getting A1s for my tests and exams so i thought maybe i COULD do math! I was soooo wrong. When we advanced to secondary 3, math was then split into 2. Elementary mathematics and additional mathematics. I guess i was surviving pretty well for my Emath but ho ho ho, Amath was literally sucking the life out of me. I could never understand anything the teacher said and i would fail miserably for my exams. Throughout secondary 3&4, i've never ONCE passed my Amath exams. It would always be the same grade : F9. No matter how hard i tried and how much effort i put into it, i just can't see results. I guess i never gave up? Plus the help of tuition of course, I actually passed my Amath eventually in my O'levels. (Also with the help of my dear friends who helped me with Amath and wanting to strangle me alive in the process.)

So yes, moral of the story: Rachel can't do math for nuts. I've always been more of a language and humanities person so i guess that's why i really suck in math? With that said, wish me good luck for my accounting test tomorrow! HAHA. Also, even though you keep failing at something, don't give up! You're bound to see the fruits of your labour and its okay to not be the best in everything. And i'm gonna leave you guys with that! I'd better go do some studying hahaha. Till next time!

Much love,
Rach xoxo