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Sometimes i wonder about many things. Things that can't possibly be proven to be true, a theory made by others. Things like fate, love at first sight, will there ever be a time machine? and what if we really did have superpowers. Things like this tend to boggle my mind.

Fate, is there really some sort of invisible force floating around which enables people to be able to meet at any one time? What is fate? There is a definition of fate - the development of events outside a person's control, regarded as predetermined by a supernatural power. All i can think about is if it really exists? I do believe in fate to a certain extent i guess. But at the same time, what sorcery is this? Doubt i'll ever get an answer so oh well.

Love at first sight? Do people really fall in love just by looking at each other? If you were to think about it, it seems almost impossible or actually unbelievable. Maybe you might find the other person physically attractive but to actually fall in love? I'm not a believer. I'm pretty sure it has happened to others for it to be a known theory. It's kinda cool thinking about it. Like how can you love someone you just met? But i guess love knows no bounds. Have anyone of you actually experienced love at first sight?

Will there ever be a time machine? That's one question i would really hope the answer is yes. Imagine just going back to the day something great happened? Or going back to the time when dinosaurs were still inhabiting the Earth? I would really hope that i'd be alive to see the time machine. However, i'm pretty darn sure that it's not coming in the near future. I would love to time travel. Its like being able to go back and change a mistake in your life or just going back to scare your younger self haha. ( the obvious effects of watching way too many movies) There's also no doubt that it'll cost like a fortune just for a one time ticket for time travelling. I sure hope it happens one day though, that'll be awesome.

Super powers? I would always imagine i had super powers as a kid - i mean who wouldn't? Even now, i would think about these things and wonder if i were to have a super power, what would it be? Would it be cool? Would i be able to choose the power i wanted? I came down to 2 super powers. It was either being able to read minds or being able to teleport. I'm leaning towards teleportation though. Just imagine being able to teleport from home to wherever in the world in just a few seconds. I guess it'll possibly never happen and it's just my inner child fighting for her dreams to be realised. If you were to have a superpower, what would it be?

Okay i think that's enough of me rambling. What do YOU believe in?

Much love,

Rach xoxo

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Creatures of habit

As i made my way to the mrt station, the crowd was starting to flood in as well. I took a glimpse at my watch as the hour hand rests on the number 7 and the minute hand just between the 5 and 6. It was the rush hour. The time where work has ended and everybody rushes to get back home to their family and friends.

I never enjoyed travelling on the train during this period. This time it was different, i decided not to reach for my earphones. As i quickly positioned myself comfortably in the corner beside the train doors, (nope not a particularly spacious corner but a little area i could call my own) i look around. Everyone had their phones in their hands, earphones securely plugged into their ears seemingly to be blocking out whatever sound there may be in the train. Men and women in their usual office attires, looking awfully dead and in need of an instant caffeine fix. It was almost impossible to find someone smiling there and then. I thought to myself,  "maybe they're just tired after a full day at work" , i mean who wouldn't be?

A man made his way into the not-so-crowded train, there wasn't any seats which isn't surprising and just plopped himself on the floor right opposite the cosy corner i was standing at. The only difference was that he was sitting on the floor with his white Apple earphones plugged in hugging his laptop bag tightly and slowly falling asleep and i was standing. He didn't look shabby at all, dressed in a crisp long sleeve button up, normal working pants and shiny black shoes. That was what surprised me.

It makes me scared to think about myself being one of these emotionless people in the train, not that it's any bad don't get me wrong. I find it difficult to imagine my life just being in this constant cycle. Breakfast, work, lunch, work, travel home, dinner, to bed, repeat. I mean school's similar, but there are still changes with the timetable, school timings and all that. Going into the working world is a whole new world, almost like a new way of life. One that i am afraid to step in and wish that i never have to, however impossible.

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Much love, 

Rach xoxo

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i want to

"Our hearts are wild creatures and that's why our ribs are cages."

i want to sleep better. - since semester break started, i've been sleeping extremely late and waking up too late. I've barely said hi to mornings, feels like i've a lost friend

i want to start playing tennis again.

i want to focus on spending more time with my family and friends this break.

i want to start reading again.

i want to stop thinking about what could have been and think about what can be.

i want to remember how happy i used to be everyday.

i want to stop thinking about what others think and do what makes me happy.

i want to focus more on doing well in my studies. - study hard, stay humble

i want to like being around myself and get to know myself better.

i want to blog more.

i want to know more people, know their stories, smile more aaand the list goes on...

what about you? What do YOU want?

Much love, 

Rach xoxo

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Things i wish i knew when i was 15

Hey there bunnies! So sorry i haven't been posted in a while. 2 weeks to be exact!  That's because i was caught up with many projects and had to prepare for my exams. But i am back! So hello there! Currently i am having my semester break so i'll most likely be more actively blogging! So here's today's post.

As you can tell by the post title, i guess many of us have learnt many things the hard way in life as not everything in life has a fixed answer and sometimes, we just have to go through it to understand.

Being 17, i guess i pretty much am living in the teenage years. With fluctuating emotions, bad decisions and a whole lot of  "Why did i even do that?". Here are some things i wish i knew when i was 15.

• pain doesn't last, time really does heal
• learn to stand up for yourself, others rarely would do that for you.
• learn to say no. - no's your friend don't be afraid to use him
• never stop dreaming.
• bad grades doesn't mean the end of the world.
• pick yourself up when you fall and try again.
• times of unbearable loneliness will come - learn to love being with yourself and love yourself as no one else has the potential to love you like you can.
• change will come, never be afraid - the old has to go for the new to come.
• don't expect people to stay in your life forever.
• be accountable for what you do.
• don't carry broken people who are not even in the works of rebuilding themselves.
• you'll be okay.
• you'll be alright.
• do your best and it will be enough, theres nothing stopping you from becoming magnificent.
• be grateful.
• laugh lots.
• give love.

Much love,

Rach xoxo

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SG50

Hey there bunnies! So this post would be about my journey through NDP'15. If you follow me on instagram or snapchat, you would know that i've taken part in the National Day Parade once again!! This time as a leader. I'd say it was a very fulfilling experience and i've learnt a lot from this. It was nice to be able to take part in such a large event, Singapore's 50th Birthday. Pearlie, Cui Wen and I decided to all join NDP through heartware again this year as we really had so much fun back in 2013. However i got to say that taking part in NDP this year was super tiring, mostly due to the huge amount of projects and assignments i had to complete. It was a commitment. Taking part in NDP would mean that my Saturdays would always be burnt.

Not going to lie, at the very beginning i did actually regret my choice of participating in NDP. School work was starting to flood in and i was having lesser time to complete my assignments. That was when i started to feel that NDP was more of a burden i couldn't shake off because i've already committed to and it would be super irresponsible to just quit halfway. (which i just couldn't bring myself to do)  Slowly, i started adjusting my time and made the best out of my NDP Saturdays.

Now that it's all over, i'm glad to say that i didn't quit halfway through. The people i've met here and the friendships i've fostered was enough of a reason to keep me motivated to go every Saturday. I'm really thankful to those who has made this year's NDP experience an enjoyable and fruitful one. Especially to my East gallery leaders as well as EG5!! Every single one of you has been so nice to me through every training and every show and i really do appreciate it. Although some of you were not able to make it for the last show, it's okay! We'll still meet up as a group yeah? A huge thanks to Jackie and Najwa for being super nice SOICs. THANK YOU!! Also to the army personnels, thanks for making it so fun HAHA. But Nazri i'll always remember you for shouting in my face ten thousand times during the NE shows and how Ernest really looks like the other guy and Zheng Dao for being ever so nice. I really really hope to see all of you soon! Also to those that has been a dear to me and taking care of me throughout the whole experience, Thank You. Lastly, to Bok and pear thank you for being with me throughout this NDP journey!! Love all of you!! Till next year's NDP maybe? haha

Till next time!! PS: sorry for the difference in filters..
Much love, Rach xoxo

Not what we used to be...

Hey there bunnies, so recently i had a conversation with a close friend of mine and i was just talking about how many friends whom i thought would stick by me forever that aren't by me anymore. He told me that we can't expect everyone to stick by us forever. People change and everybody knows it. I knew that but yet there's always this part of me who refuses to believe that. I choose not to believe that maybe we might not be talking anymore. Some people might just call that living in denial.

I guess it's true that we all grow up and we all change. Somehow, in one way or another, we just outgrow our friends(?) We grow up and start thinking differently, so i guess we drift away from one another. It's okay to not be as close to a person as you once were. Situations change, environments change which in turn, people change. But if you really wanted a friendship to last, it still boils down to taking out time to talk to your friend once in a while, showing him or her that you truly care about them and if they feel the same way, they would do the same. Nothing is wrong with outgrowing your friends. That's just part and parcel of life and it remains that way even if you do not accept it.

Someone once told me,  "If you're friends with someone for more than 7 years, they would be in your life forever." It seems like the 7th year was the deciding year in which decides if you two remain as close to each other. I never really knew if it was true or just something someone made up until today.  I choose to believe it's true, reasons because i am actually not in contact with someone whom i knew for 7 years anymore. That person was someone really dear to me and never would i have thought that the day we stopped talking would come. Not really sure what happened but we just stopped talking.

I've known for quite a while that i am a person that gets very emotionally attached to people and sometimes i feel afraid to be close to someone because if one day that person chooses to leave i might not be able to take it. The feeling of losing someone you're attached to sucks. I hate that feeling so i've become cautious about being emotionally attached to people. At the moment i don't know if that's a good or bad thing but i guess we'll see how it goes!

So sorry that i haven't been blogging much.. I just have too many projects and assignments on hand to even think about blogging. If you follow me on Snapchat (rachelluiii) , i'm sure you have the front row seat to what's going on in my life. The first semester of school is ending really soon (thank god) and i would have more time to blog!! So just be a little more patient!! Till next time!

Much love,
Rach xoxo