Not the best week

Hey there, judging from the title of the post, i think you can sort of guess how this post is gonna go. Haven't been feeling the best this week due to many reasons:

1.  The amount of assignments that is piled is insane. Doesn't help that the due dates for these assignments are packed so close together we can't exactly just focus on one particular assignment but manage between the 6 different modules and assignments at the same time. Thinking about it makes me nauseous.

2.  My laptop decided now's the best time to 'die' on me. Okay so, around 2 days ago i was just using my laptop as per normal, when i decided to shut down and close my laptop, i heard a loud crack as i was closing it. Guess what, near the hinge of my laptop, there's a huge gaping hole (there were even small broken plastic pieces scattered on my table). I swear i did nothing to my computer at all. And it was perfectly fine before that. Like i don't get what and how that happened. It wasn't as if i dropped it or slammed it shut. And i just flipping broke down. It was like around 11:30pm at night and i was so ready to go to bed but no. My laptop just had to do this to me in the midst of my assignments, i just stared at my computer in disbelief and ran to my brother for help even though there was nothing he could do about it anyways. I love my life :') It is still working normally now but whenever i open and close my laptop it just makes this horrible cracking noise like it might just fall apart any time. I should probably send it for service. Then again, it will mean i wouldn't have my laptop for around a week and i've submissions next Monday and Friday. Once again loving my life :')

3.  Have absolutely no motivation whatsoever to do my assignments. And considering the deadlines coming up, i better start doing something about it and not continue being a gigantic sloth that i am.

4.  Sleep deprived. I haven't really been sleeping well these few days. I'm literally a zombie now who can't wait to sleep in tomorrow.

5.  I keep thinking about the amount of things i have to do and the amount of time that i have to complete them and i just freak out and fall into an emotional pit. Getting angry/sad/frustrated at anything and everything. I think i might just be going insane.

6.  And because of the above, i have been lashing out at the people who are the closest to me and who care about me. (the week i feel like a horrible human being) I'm sorry.

Okay i'm gonna just leave it at 6 points before i fall into full on depression. I hope you guys had a better week than i did! Enjoy the weekends!!

* One plus point that made my week slightly less miserable, i met Jazreel today :') *

Till next time!

Much love,

Rach xoxo

(PS. I'm gonna just continue posting on this platform)

Those unsaid

Sometimes when you have those 1am reflections about life, you start to realize that not everyone around you are there for you genuinely. There will be people who just hang around you who can't wait for the moment you just crash and burn. Let those who persistently tries to bring you down go. They don't need any sort of goodbye party, learn to surround yourself with the people who bring out the best in you.

Actually,  i don't think i'm a good person. In fact, some days i feel that i'm a horrible human being that doesn't deserve to walk the surface of the earth. On those days, i don't feel i deserve all the things that i have in my life. Other days, i feel rather good about myself, those are the days i feel i deserve a little treat, and i presume that those are the days are the effect of spending time with some incredible people (the people i hold dear to my heart).

Some people come in as a blessing, others just as passing wind (along with lessons learnt). and i'm perfectly contented with the handful of blessings i currently have in my possession. So, just. let. the. rest. go.

Till next time!

Much love,

Rach xoxo

Something different

Hello there my trusty internet buddies!

So about a week ago, when i was still on my term break,  Kah Ying and i decided to go to a museum one day (main reason: she wanted to take pictures at the photo booth). We visited the Singapore Art Museum (SAM). It was something different. Somehow it never really occurred to me to visit a museum besides being brought there on a school trip or for other events. 

Honestly, it was really therapeutic looking at all the different exhibitions, actually reading the little label at the sides, putting yourself into the mind of the artists, understand what the exhibit is really about and what was going through their minds while they were bringing that piece of art to life. 

The different exhibitions were really very captivating and made me wonder why didn't i do this sooner. Some were extraordinary, others beyond beautiful. All attached with a wonderfully written and portrayed back story. 

All in all, it was a really lovely day at the museum. This wouldn't be my last museum trip for sure. Those of you who don't mind just taking a day out to do something a little different, try going to a museum! Might or might not be your cup of tea but it'll be a great experience nonetheless!!

Till next time!

Much love, 

Rach xoxo