Elusive

"When i used to look above,

all i saw was the sky;

and every song

i sang not knowing why.

All i thought and all i felt, 

was only just because,

never was it ever you

until it was all there was."

Read this today and just thought i'd share it with all of you. Also, i'm back! At least i'll be blogging more often again! Term break has started (well kinda..) *pops confetti*! I can't grasp the fact that it's already December. Like wait, where did 2015 go?.. This year has been such a rollercoaster ride and i have barely recovered when 2014 ended and now it's the end of 2015. To be honest, this year has been a year full of changes, full of uncertainty but it has also been a year i believe i've learned a lot from. New friends were made and fond memories were added to the collection. Really thankful for everything that has happened this year and for all the friends that stood by me throughout. 

On a side note, I can't flipping wait for christmas. It's my favourite season of the entire year with all the festivities and the christmas lights and the music and and and.... i could literally go on forever just rambling about how much i love christmas, but i shall refrain myself from doing so and stop here. I promise to be more active on my blog and i'll see you guys soon!! 

Till next time!

Much love,

Rach xoxo

A Dream

I had a dream, where both of us were the only people on earth. All we had was time, we had all the time in the world - literally. We didn't have any responsibilities, nothing stood in our way. The world was our oyster. It was like we had the universe at our feet. With you, it felt like the world instantly became more beautiful. The vast valleys, snow-capped mountains and lakes as clear as your eyes.

It was a funny feeling, being the only two people left, but i just knew that everything would be alright as long as i was with you. No words needed to be exchanged but i knew, everything was okay just looking at you smile. And soon before we knew it, night had fallen. It was like we were under a blanket of stars, with you smiling and saying that my eyes showed the different constellations and you just couldn't stop staring right into them.  How i'd wish time would just stop and you would always be right there beside me.

Sadly, i was interrupted by the first light of day that hit the lids of my eyes. I moaned from the tapping sun-light against my face, i blinked, shut my eyes, and blinked again. I yawned and managed to open both eyes then realized that everything was just a dream. Something only my subconscious was able to experience.

Much love,

Rach xoxo

Friday the 13th

Hey there! I know i haven't been updating much, but school's been a chore and my assignments are just piling up by the day. Literally can't wait till my next holidays which shall be in about a month's time (thank god). Since its friday, school shall cease to exist in my head temporarily.

So on my way home today, i thought about my secondary school days (could be because i read my old diary entries a few nights ago). How i used to struggle with Amath, how i used to sleep in Chinese lessons and sometimes even in Emath lessons with Mrs Ong's voice ringing in my ears constantly pointing Jazreel and I out to be called "the sleeping beauties" but we'd continue to sleep anyways.

We've all done a whole load of crap in secondary school whether we acknowledge it or not. The times when that cute guy/girl in the class next door was our only motivation to go to school everyday or how us girls have to unfold our skirts whenever there was an attire check. Everyone would only have one thing on their mind: Recess. Once recess is over, it'll automatically change to: end of school. Maybe not everyone, but i was sure one of them. Recess was one of the best times of the day it meant getting to eat at my favourite noodle stall (I miss uncle's noodles with every passing day). Secondary school was also the time in our lives where we'd make the worst decisions or maybe to the more mature kiddos out there, not so much.

Not forgetting to mention, the 'puppy love' period. Everyone would have a crush and it was always exciting to know who this person was crushing on or who that person was crushing on. Secondary 1 Rachel then decided to start writing in a diary (might be one of her best decisions back then).

I was just looking through my old diary entries a few days back and guess what, i found a page which i named the 'likes' page. There was a whole list of people's names and who they fancied at that time. Some which i had totally forgotten existed. I was actually quite informed about these facts back then (horrible girl). You'll never know, you right now, reading this blog post, you might just be one of those names that made it in that list. Not only those small little crushes, but those secondary school love birds too. It kinda went like this: ______ likes _______ and even _________ stead ________ and the list goes on. Yeah remember that word? Going steady, was what it was called back then HAHA. Whenever someone changed their person of interest, i'd even update their little line. (Wonderful things i did when i was supposed to be studying aye?)

Nonetheless, i am really thankful i started writing in my diary. Now, i can already look back and laugh at my idiocy back then. Just Imagine 25 year old Rachel.. Oh the horror.

This post is getting a little too long so i guess i'm just going to end it here. Till next time! Oh and i'm thinking of doing another Q&A so do feel free to drop me a question here :Ask rachellueee!

Much love,

Rach xoxo

October in squares

Much love,

Rach xoxo

Lost

I know you've lost someone and yes, it hurts. They might have left suddenly, unexpectedly. You are hurting and i understand. I am not here to tell you that tomorrow will be a new day, or that you will feel better next week, on the other hand, it's okay to hurt as much as you are now and that's what makes you ever the more human. When we lose someone, fragments of memories linked to that person would start streaming in whether you like it or not.

Happy memories, sad memories, memories you forgot existed would just pour right into your little head like a massive wave you never expected. A wave that would destroy every last bit of energy in you. We cannot control the amount of pain one inflicts on us. We could have started losing them piece by piece until there was nothing left, only then we realize the amount of depth that person had in our lives.

I can't promise that you'll feel better anytime soon, but eventually you will. For now, take all the time you need. Take all the time in the world to mend your broken heart.

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Nostalgia

So today after school i decided to come to Starbucks to just chill as i end school early on Wednesdays. But, not just any Starbucks, the Starbucks i spent most of my time studying with friends after school in secondary 4. It was a funny feeling coming back here. Thinking of the times my friends and i would just study here, do math, memorize geography notes. I still remember my music playlist i had back then, that goes in loops and loops repeating the same old songs over and over again.

It was almost a daily affair coming here, getting myself a cup of green tea soy latte sipping and studying away. Can't believe it's actually been a year since my O'levels. I still remember the frustration i had whenever i couldn't solve my Amath questions and would always have an emergency contact whenever i got stuck (haha thanks). Even doing up geography notes here with all my coloured markers and pens sprawled across the table. Yes, we'd come here and hog the longest and biggest table all the way till around 7pm. (Pretty sure everyone hated us back then oops..)

Have to admit we aren't ALWAYS studying. Girls being girls, we'd just talk and talk and talk. And before i knew it, it was 6pm and i've barely done anything HAHA. Kinda wish i could just go back to that time, even just for a day.

So, school has started and i don't exactly know what to make out of it. No matter how much i loved the holidays and did not want school to start at all, i couldn't help but feel like i had a teeny weeny part of me who was excited for a new semester. After experiencing most of my new modules, i can be sure it's not gonna be as fun as my first. Not gonna lie, this semester might kind of be boring and dry but i hope i'm wrong. Shall continue working hard and never be complacent (:

On a side note, i really can't wait for christmas. Just the atmosphere and everything makes it the best time of the year. Not forgetting to mention, kinda feels a lot like christmas in this starbucks with all their deco and their new christmas menu out again (:

PS: I am actually thinking of creating a dayre account but i ain't too sure about it HAHA We'll see!

Till next time!

Much love,

Rach xoxo

Questions //  ask rachelluee!!

Back to school

Hey there, i know i've posted a somewhat post today but i thought i'd still like to write one. School officially starts tomorrow and i'm not prepared both mentally and emotionally. But there's nothing much i can do but to suck it up and embrace it HAHA. This semester break was really nice and a well deserved break from all the projects and school work which i deeply appreciate. All good things come to an end so i'll just look forward to my next holidays in December!

I'm kinda having some back to school jitters. With all new modules and new lecturers. Hopefully i'll survive aye? HAHA. With school back, i'll most probably be really busy and not have much time to blog but i'll promise to do my best alright! (: I would blog and update once in awhile no worries! To those starting school tomorrow too, YOU'RE NOT ALONE WE SHALL SURVIVE. And to those starting your O'levels, all the best!! Believe in yourself (;

Till next time

Much love,

Rach xoxo

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Thursday Shenanigans

// My favourite picture out of the lot //

So on Thursday, the 3 of us when into a food frenzy. Basically, we dedicated a day just to eat, just for food. Nope, not anything fancy. We went to one of the best local hawker centres, Chomp Chomp. It was located pretty far away from our homes (Serangoon) so we met up around 4-ish and started our food search. Me being me, i was late.. AGAIN. Cui Wen even posted this on her SnapChat

I guess that'll give you a rough picture of what a horrible person i am HAHA. Anyways, so we made our way to Chomp Chomp and actually had our dinner quite early. Around 5/6pm. We ordered SO MUCH FOOD. When everything was on our table, i totally felt the judgemental stares of those who walked by. I can totally visualize what they were thinking "How can 3 girls finish that much food." They had NO IDEA. We ordered satay, BBQ stingray, hokkien noodles and many many more. That meal was so satisfying i can't even put into words. Although it was indeed really hot and with me not having a very high tolerance of spicy food made the heat on a whole new level, nonetheless, still satisfying. Not forgetting to mention how much Cui Wen loves her stingray. She was like a little girl who was just presented with a puppy. Sorry for such a horrible comparison, but you get the drift. 

We totally stuffed ourselves silly that day. After dinner, we went to have dessert. HAHA. Yes we did. Ice-cream and waffles at Oblong a cafe nearby. After all that food, when i felt like my stomach was on the verge of bursting, guess what we did. We took pictures. HAHA. Meh, nothing surprising right? I would just say, my tummy was overly satisfied that day and we really enjoyed ourselves. With Cui Wen being all high on who knows what. The 3 of us just laughed and laughed at everything. 

Most probably this would be the last 'outing' we'll be having for this semester break. School's starting next week. And i am certainly not looking forward to it. Anyways, cheers to a great day and for more to come! Now, enjoy our faces. HAHA.

Much love,

Rach xoxo