Another ending

Hello all! I'm writing again! This time, to mark the end of my 17 weeks of internship! Today is my last day and I am glad to say that I have really enjoyed it. The office is beautiful and the people here are wonderful.

My best takeaway would have to be the other intern friends I made while I was here. Also, a shout out to my supervisor who's like damn chill and cool (haha props to you my gangsta supervisor).

At the same time, I can't believe 17 weeks just flew by like that. Time for my long awaited holidays!! *throws confetti* A 2 months break before its back to the grind with my final semester of school!! It's insane thinking that I am left with just 1 semester before I graduate from Poly. WOW.

Scared of what lies ahead after that, but I can't wait to graduate!! One final lap of FYP and it's goodbye Poly education! Alright, lets not think about that first. I shall enjoy my 2 months of holidays first. Yippie!

I will try to update during my holidays, so stay tuned!!

Rach xoxo

Keepsakes

I've always enjoyed taking photos. Usually to remember a certain event, day, country etc. I think its because i enjoy looking back on them and reminiscing the good times. Today i found myself looking through my phone's photo album and looking at how my friends and i have changed over the years. Laughing at our obnoxious faces and just thinking to ourselves "why did we do that?" - totally crashing our group chat.

Maybe that's why i write in my diary on my happiest and saddest days as well. Just so i can go back a few years later and read how i felt in that moment. Writing can be quite therapeutic, i feel.

On my happiest days i take the most photos and write the most in my diary so i can remember every single minuscule detail of that day even after 20 years. I think that makes me one of the most dreadfully sentimental people on earth. If polaroid films aren't as expensive as they are, i'm pretty sure i'd carry my camera everywhere i went, snapping away and keeping all the photos in a book with a caption right next to each one.

Its the warm fuzzy feeling you get when you just take your time reminiscing utter euphoria and bliss that makes me want to do it even more. 

Rach xoxo

An endless cycle

It's funny how most people write when they feel a certain kind of emotion, be it happy or sad. These are the moments we want to remember in time to come and thus we take the time and patience to put our thoughts into words (or at least, we try). I've been trying to put my thoughts into words and it just doesn't seem to come out how i want it to or remotely close to how i feel. But still, let's give it a shot.

I have slowly come to understand that people are not here to live up to your expectations, yes, i know what you're thinking, ''you only realize that now?" but its the uncontrollable thought or expectation you might have of someone.

Whether it be them being the most wonderful person you thought he/she would be or how you never expected them to react a way they did to a particular situation. And when they happen to prove that they aren't up to your expectations, they automatically disappoint. It's not their fault for disappointing or rather, not living up to your expectations of them.

You craft out a baseless assumption of the people around you and if they do not react the way you predicted them to, you just feel like they have disappointed you in some way. But, breaking news, they don't owe you any of that.

It's quite cruel, how we as humans constantly find peace in familiarity when in fact the only constant is change. How someone you could know so well act in a totally unfamiliar way after lets say, 6 months. And although you can always forgive them for what they have done, you know you can never forget how it made you feel. How the words they said made you feel then and there in that moment. It never really fades no matter how many times you choose to forgive someone.

Life...

Rach xoxo

Tv Series Galore

Hello you guys! It's been approximately a month since I've updated so I'm back with another post!

I know it's currently the 'June School Holidays' here in Singapore so I thought some of you might be looking for a new tv series to watch when you have time to kill. I'll be giving recommendations and my thoughts on my current favorite tv series and some which I've already completed till the latest episode. Most of which would be either British or US tv series (which I'm undeniably obsessed with). So, let's get into it!

Oh and one very exciting thing to update is that your girl here has finally got her driver's license!! After countless trips to the driving centre and the nerves and the trauma, I'm glad to say I'm officially a license holder (yippie)!!

First on the list, would be my very first American tv series, The Vampire Diaries.

I started the this in either 2013 or 2014 when my friend Amanda recommended it to me and I've been watching ever since. Now now, I know what some of you might be thinking, gosh it must be another twilight vampire and wolves sorta thing. But no, not gonna lie, but that was my initial thought when I heard the name of the series too. It really isn't. So some background to this series: It's about this teenage girl Elena Gilbert who falls deeply in love with a 162-year-old vampire named Stefan Salvatore and their relationship starts becoming increasingly complicated with Stefan's older brother Damon appearing and realizing that Elena resembles their past love Katherine Pierce in which Damon starts falling for Elena too. Slowly, Elena unravels the secrets of the town she lives in, Mystic Falls and the story continues. Don't be too quick to judge the name of the series and give it a shot. I promise it'll be worth it!

Black Mirror

Black Mirror is a British tv series which I highly recommend. Every episode is a stand alone story with a whole new cast and a totally different story. It is filled with thrills, suspense and is oh so interesting. I was hooked on this series and I might or might not have binged watched my way through 3 seasons. And I already can't wait for the next season to premiere.

Big Little Lies

Big Little Lies (based on a best selling novel) is a HBO mini series consisting of only 7 episodes which I indeed binged through. It starts with letting you know that there was someone dead, and you will not know who, how or why until you've reached the end of the 7 episodes and goes through showing fractured relationships between husbands and wives, children, friends and neighbors and is told through the eyes of 3 mothers. I really hope that season 2 is in the making, that's how much I enjoyed this series.

The Handmaid's Tale

The Handmaid's Tale was based on a best selling novel. It takes place in the future and the women in America have completely lost their rights. Women were sectioned into different categories such as, aunts, handmaids wives. However this follows the story of a handmaid named Offred. A handmaid is something like a concubine and she has to have sex with the commander every month on 'ceremony day' while the wife is there watching the whole thing. Its quite a freaky transaction and its the best solution they came up with because of the declining birth rates. Its super interesting and everyone should totally watch it.

Okay I have recommended a few of my favorite tv series and I hope this helps anyone of you who is struggling to find something to watch! If you have any favorite tv shows you'd want me to watch, do let me know!!

Till next time!

Rach xoxo

BREATHE

These few days, weeks, I have just been in this cycle of thinking way over my head. Thinking about things I know I wouldn't have the answers to no matter how hard I thought about them. Sometimes even causing myself to be in a horrible mood because of it all and taking it out on the people that mean the most to me. (If you're one of them, I hope you know that I don't mean it and I'm sorry)

Things have just been spiraling and some days I just feel dreadful not even knowing the reason why. Need to really think what's going on and why I'm feeling this way for the longest time ever. Sometimes I can't even understand my own thoughts. Is it just me? Am I thinking way too much?

On the other hand, I am currently having my internship attachment and so far so good! I got to say, being a social media intern isn't all fun and games, but I guess it beats having to do coding for 4 months! I've also been watching many TV series and movies in my down time to the point I have nothing else to watch - which I am quite ashamed about. I need a new list of movies or TV series to watch! So if you know any good ones to recommend, do let me know!

Hoping all of you are well and thank you for continuously visiting this platform. I'll try to do better.

Till next time,

Rach xoxo

My heart is full

Although late, but Happy New Year! Can't believe it's already 2017! For those of you who would still pop in to check if there is any new content only to be met with disappointment, thank you. It means a lot to me.

Also, I came across an image of this short insert in my phone in horrible handwriting, it was from quite a while ago, back in early 2016 and I can't recall if I wrote it (probably not) or I got it off somewhere (most probably Lang Leav) but here it is:

"As the Earth began spinning faster and faster,  we floated upwards, hands locked

tightly together, eyes sad and bewildered. We watched as our faces grew younger

and realised the Earth was spinning in reverse, moving backwards in time.

Then we reached a point where I no longer knew who you were and I was grasping 

the hands of a stranger. But I didn't let go. And neither did you."

On another note, I am done with my second year of poly! Next up, internship. I'm both terrified and excited for this new change. Totally gonna make me feel more "adult-ish" and hopefully I'll enjoy my time out of school. *fingers crossed* 

Before my internship, I am just extremely excited to spend my close to 8 weeks of break to the fullest with friends and family, people that I love, & of course, learning how to drive haha. 

And here are some snippets of the time while I was away with some of the people that mean the world to me. Yes, I love elephants so they are here too.

Feeling extremely thankful for everything thus far. I just hope 2017 will be a year filled with more laugher, surprises and being surrounded by the lovely bunch of people that I am clenching onto tightly (none of you are getting rid of me (-; ) goes out to those not in the pictures above too I'm sure you guys are well aware.

Learn to be grateful for the littlest of things in life.

- What I try to tell myself everyday.

Till next time,

Rach xoxo

Last one

WHOOP I am free!! 

(sorta, still have one last assignment to get through :') )

T minus 24 hrs to total freedom.